Love.

The love for equals is a human thing-of friend for friend, brother for brother. It is to love what is loving and lovely. The world smiles. The love for the less fortunate is a beautiful thing- the love for those who suffer, for those who are poor, the sick, the failures, the unlovely. This is compassion, and it touches the heart of the world. The love for the more fortunate is a rare thing- to love those who succeed where we fail, to rejoice without envy with those who rejoice, the love of the poor for the rich, of the black man for the white man. The world is always bewildered by its saints. And then there is the love for the enemy-love for the one who does not love you but mocks, threatens, and inflicts pain. The tortured's love for the torturer. This is God's love. It conquers the world.

Goodbye 18

Well today was my last day as an eighteen year old. A part of me feels like my childhood and teenage years are slipping through my fingers. I feel like I have to stop it, but I'm at a loss for exactly how...Don't get me wrong, I'm exciting for the next journey, but it's coming so fast.

Lets recap this past year...

I became a senior.

starting writing for the news paper

had my first Valentines Day with Zack

celebrated our 1 year anniversary

drove to Athens by myself

visited UGA, Mercer, and GCSU

got accepted to GCSU

started taking speech

rekindled old friendships

lost old friendships

got to go off campus for lunch

got a new cell phone

received a lot of "college friendly" stuff

applied to many colleges

took the SAT...twice

took the ACT

went to a Steve Fee concert

attended the BETA club convention

went to the Lennex Mall in ATL

began AP English

read...a lot

Well...that's all I can think of at the moment...

Not only was this my last day as an eighteen year old, but it was senior night for the winter sports. It was completely bittersweet. I was so happy for all of my friends, but at the same time so sad that this was their last basketball game at our home gym. Not only that, but it was my last time watching a basketball game at our home gym while being a high school student. I will never get to see my best friend play basketball at Augusta Christian. This was completely surreal. I wanted to freeze every moment and just soak in all the memories I could.I have never in my life wanted to freeze a moment as much as I did tonight.

Libraries are for losers like me.

Striking realization: libraries are somewhat amazing & do wonders for those of us with ADD.

Today I got the bright idea of working on my poetry explication (don't I sound smart) at the library, thinking it would cut down on some of the distractions. And I happened to be right on track if I do say so myself. They have these little cubby desk things that are entirely secluded from the rest of the library. It was amazing! I feel like such a dork posting this, but I feel like this info must be shared.

It's Getting Cold Outside

This is a completely random thought, but we all know how the weather in the South is crazy. It can be the dead of winter and people are wearing shorts and flip flops...But the next day is freezing and you are scraping ice off your windshield.

This is analogy of how I feel about my spiritual life sometimes. Some days it's on fire and the next day I find myself growing complacent and struggling to care. Some weeks I do my quiet time everyday with out ceasing but the next week I find myself making up excuses to even read a small passage.

Just a thought...

In

college acceptances

no homework

finding time to blog

& work out

best friends

subway

cute clothes

quiet

skype

Out

waiting to hear from colleges

know- it- alls

complacency

sore throats

broken cameras

messy rooms

B's on tests

bright skinny jeans

Half Way to Somewhere

Well I haven't posted in a while so why not add regular blogging to the list of new year resolutions?

Senior year is officially half way done. I can't decide how to feel about this. I'm sad to leave my friends, but so excited to start something new and meet new people. Sometimes I find myself wondering about the person I will become, and other times I find myself clinging to my childhood refusing to venture out into this dark world. Am I ready to face the approaching challenges? Can I handle them? Am I prepared?

The thought of having absolutley NO clue where I will be next year is killing me. I'm not the kinda girl to just float around and see where life takes me. I want to know exactly what I will be doingI'm half way to somewhere, but where...no one knows.

Thankfully, I just got accepted to GCSU (Georgia College & State University), a serious mouth full. That is always an option. I suppose all I can do is tell myself that I can do anything and look forward to this new chapter of my life...actually more like a entirely new book.

Take My Life

Glory to God

Glory to God 

Glory to God forever

Take my life and let it be all for You and for Your Glory 

Have you ever just really thought about what you sing? I mean really thought about it?

Glory to God who paid our sins and died so that we may have life abundantly.

I have finally come to the point in my life where I truly mean what I say. God, please take my life and let it be All for You and for Your glory.

IT's OUR TIME

Senior year 2010...

It's our time to..

leave a legacy

make memories

forget the past

look toward the future

plan

work hard

leave our childhood

live for Christ.

Most of these things completely and totally overwhelm me, but here we go.